Yet another weekend, I forgot that I have a long weekend and nearly claim that today is a Sunday... Sadly to say, maybe I not yet fully utilize my free time....
As age increase, I realize human are always lonely no matter what, because for sure parents would not always be there, sibling would not always be there... sadly to say every second needed to be plan accordingly in order to get rid of the loneliness....
What is loneliness? Loneliness is an unpleasant feeling in which a person feels a strong sense of emptiness and solitude resulting from inadequate social relationships. Loneliness is a natural phenomenon, since humans are social creatures by nature. Loneliness has also been described as social pain — a psychological mechanism meant to alert an individual of isolation and motivate her/him to seek social connections.
How to encounter loneliness? I kept asking myself this question because I notice loneliness can kill a person spirit and soul. People use a lot of method to kill loneliness, some use alcohol, some use drugs even some use sex (fb=fuck buddy, to just have casual sex to kill the boredom)..... but there is some other exceptional, some encourage to join social activities, charity, clubs.... actually this kind of grouping is to create human gathering, where by the feeling of wanted and appreciated is there to be felt .... Apart from that, food really comfort a lot because sometime due to food you can makes tons of friends in same but watch out on ur "WEIGHT".
I guess the best way is to reconfirm and to revalue yourself as often as possible. To felt or feel appreciate by others or even urself. To value or look at things in another way and to analyze in a different mind set. I use to be very passive in life when growing up, I have few issue in my youth, being the plus size, tall and huge... things are not going as well as what we read in the fairy tale or in the movies. Being the eldest child in the family also not a fun thing to carry, the dishes, the chores... the multiple responsible that were force down to my throat... gosh, being a Gemini and Buddhist teaching learner save me tons of trouble, I think. Because the conflict between the Satanic and Angelic me, pulling side by side; but I turn out to be ok at the end of the day mainly because of the positive thinking and all those books and movies that teach us to look the other way when you felt lonely.
Now, in my early 30's loneliness come back to haunt me again. Gals at my age, mostly would be married with kids or even with partners. Suddenly I felt lose in a way that there is no one to talk to, or even share my wonderful thing. Sometime is pretty scary, but I always make sure my weekend are planed well or even I would try to imagine how to spend those 48 hours. It is hard at first, because I try to kill my loneliness with works, but what ends up is I become so tired, no life and no friends. Then I start to mix around, try to broke the shell. And I still trying, but thankful I have a big group of support, I know even they are far out of sight, once in the blue the lovely thought and comfort from them just make my days and nights. That is something I should be thankful about, thankful and appreciate.
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